Started to feel the pressure to graduate

What happened???? ... Suddenly research interest on deflection routing seems to be growing. Following is the analysis for the search result of "deflection routing" as done on ISI Web of Knowledge.

And two professors at CityU are now working on deflection routing also. They just published a paper on this topic and is going to appear on an IEEE journal this Dec 2009.

I have to back school immediately!!! I don't want to be lack behind and I think I should have some level of inter-work with the two professors.

I decided to work on this topic as I found it is not hot. Please don't get hotter~ I hate competition!!

好一句「鍛練自己，單身一族都是這樣的」

而我就實在太唔似樣啦.....

每日都沉論於找尋愛的命運中，好一句「鍛練自己」就擊破自己的低劣感，或者言者無意，但我作為聽者，有充足權利去任我演釋。

其實我工作能力走下波都已經是第N次，回歸一下，確實次次都與孤獨感拉上100%關係。

但作為單身一族一員，似乎有更多士命要完成。向來都以為自己是失物者一群，但原來自動加入了另一個群組，亦自動安上了另一套士命，其實有更多地方自己需要鍛練的。

哈哈~ 我得把口，但無論如何，要努力做好單身一族會員所需的基本資格 --- 鍛練自己。

fake life

It is a life that you enjoy most
But it doesn't last as long as your life does
It will just come when you seem to need it
And it will take over all of your mind only when you can realize it is fake

Breath
That's what I have heard most of the time
Talk
That's why I still live in my fake life

If you find me on a street, at a place that I'm not used to be
I'm probably catching up with someone, with something, and getting to somewhere
With whom I hate, over which I vomit, to where I dislike

You don't have to know me much
Just scream out my name
And I will be out

Then, here I come
The next fake life

Vendor talk drove me crazy!!!

Today the network equipment vendor Huawei came to my workplace and delivered a technology talk. WOW! This was my second time having a vendor talk in my work places, and once again I was amazed by their research works and their chances to work on such research:

• doing applied research as their job duty
• solving problems of telcos from all around the globe
• propose new standards to IETF
• share their finding by publishing on academic journals
• design and implement solution for telcos
• introduce new technology to us, and others telcos
• etc etc etc

OMG!!!!!

Please allow me to do my research in fulltime!! I have some many things to get done now!!!

認識一位熱血Tech Geek

佢係Vendor NSN既新同事，早幾個月由PCCW Solution過檔，同佢傾幾句計，感覺係---WOW!!!

佢係一位對IT對Technology有睇法既人。

佢見到我用Google Reader就開始同我share IT/Technology野，佢介紹我佢一位舊同事叫SiuYing，佢既blog響Google.com.hk係排行第一，又向我介紹Twitter好玩既地方。哈哈，因為佢，我又從新開返返我掉低左半年一年無用過既Twitter a/c。

我有個即時反應，點解我當初唔報名去Solution而係Cascade~!!!

繼續同哩位新NSN同事傾計，感覺佢好留意IT/Technology事情之餘，亦係Master人，主修CS，入行3年，但性情隨意，屬而玩樂心態面對工作既人。Solution既工作環境真係咁理想??? 哈哈~

我問左佢一問，Solution係咪個個都好似佢咁，佢話佢係Solution有一班對Tech野有興趣既人，一齊係公司搞起哩個風氣 (做得好!) 一齊share新野交流下，而家哩班人走下一個走下一個，都無乜幾個好似佢咁仲響Solution做啦。

真可惜，但亦好高興原來Solution曾經可以容下一班咁既性情中人哦 ^^

More about SiuYing
http://www.reality.hk/
http://twitter.com/siuying

Why I insist not to be in any religion, or any kind of it

"Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind." (Albert Einstein)

So relying on scientific mindset does not make me avoid any religion of any kind.

The first of the most very reason is the following.

Different religions are nothing but a different perspective to same topic of love (to me at least), and yet they can't respect each other under their logic of love. W . T . F .

I have been seeing many articles/leaflets/videos that telling you why your god is fake and why this one is real. Alright~ here we get a beautiful logic. Telling you how to believe in something that you shouldn't prove it at the first place, and yet giving you necessary and sufficient conditions to falsify the others. "religion without science is blind" is so true here.

If you really need a supreme power before you can be something, please go for any religion. Just randomly is pretty ok, as long as you feel comfortable and safe.

But if you are one of those (including me) who wish and admire to share your perspective of love with people but you don't find any place to do so, please .... religion is not a necessary thing for you to go for!!!! Your potential "targets consumers", and thus "market share", is going to have a sharp drop once you define a boundary of people. That's just work against the logic of "sharing" we set out at the very beginning.

And particularly, I have to hate one religion, who keep working hard to destroy the community of Buddhism. I bet I don't have to tell its name, as most of you know it already!

But, for what ever religion you are, if you would like to share with me your point of view of love, I tell you --- I am going to learn from you, listen to what you admire, and share with you my point of view of love as well.

I love what I am now doing, but I wouldn't put everyone to be just like me. I am now learning to live with conflict, to live with avoided unavoidable, to live with imperfection, to live with whom I love, to live with whom I hate.

只許成功不許失敗，令失敗更失敗

to be done

好新鮮的Party

新鮮，在於這是一個friend's friend's Birthday Party~

未曾試出現於一個朋友party但還需要來個自我介紹，還有ice breaking games~!! 或者因為主角是社工界的朋友。

呵呵~ 很感激，因為我又認識到好幾位新朋友，有否機會再見就言之尚早，不過把這個party看成一個training，那就應該就是一個《提升自信心Training》呀~

久別了

噢? 甚麼有一段時間沒有來寫寫東西?

最近都沒有甚麼想說的，呀~ 我理髮了，感覺靚仔了~ 哈哈~

公司今天都抱著個hea的心態面前一切大少事，可拖則拖，可不理則不理。

學校要等的信還未到，唉...

A letter to the Limbless Nick

Have you even been in downturn these days? You seem to be too strong somehow

What if I now can get you back your two arms and two legs? Do you want them now at your 26? What about at your 40, 50, 60?

I think we all grow up to a point that we can claim ourself independent and take care others. And that's what we all have to do first before we believe what we can achieve anything. What do you think?

I don't mean to be offensive to you, I just do it deliberately for you.

I want to walk along a way that no one walked before. I also dream to improve others life using my lifetime, my knowledge, my ability, my passion, etc etc etc~ Yes that I may sometime tempted to give up, but guess what? The hardest part is not to get back up, but to withstand the sucking audience, like this one "oohohohoohoho~~ did you see that? I get back up now~!" "so?"

As I mentioned, I dream to improve others' life using ... me~! So my definition of success obviously, and also necessarily, comes from others.

Nick, or Will in the movie "The bufferfly circus", you are strong now. I live one year longer than you, but I may need several lifes more to do as many awesome stuffs as you have already did.

I really hope that I had been one of your friends since your were a kid. I have been keening to help someone who need the same help as I do. As a matter of being myself, yes~ we have to push ourself by whatever means so that we have strength to try again, and again, and again. And as a matter of being in a group, yes~ we know we are not alone~! Even though we may not find our groupmates now, they are everywhere. And I found you tonight~

Nick, you found what you are looking for has nothing to do with legs and arms, because 4-limb people are also looking for it. It is something about how we think and how we do, and that is within our reach already. So, why still waiting for args and legs?

I love your way you live your life. Keep going Nick. Get the world inspired, and so do I~ You called upon 25 schools and acted as you were actually a speaker. Okay, now my turn~!

I am a researcher.

We are what we think, and then that is what we really are.

11月4日

時間可以走得如此快，四分之一個年過去了。

我越來越懂得注意特別日子。

好安慰

雖然身份已經轉變了，作為老朋友，其實都非常欣慰，看到又走完人身一個重要階段。

似乎我越來越懂得去享受節日，對我自己的最後一個畢業，現在的我是強烈期待著，這個期待很單純，就只不過是影靚相吧了 ^^

送上我的祝福，繼續為自己要做的事而堅持著哦~!

Finally, I can update my Windows XP...!

I didn't do a windows update for so long at school as it is too costly for me. I just have some 3 hours in school everyday and a 5 to 10 minutes of restarting translates to 2 to 4% of total lost~!!!

But now, I can~ hohohoo~~ More school time means better life~ ^^

Life Without Limbs :: Nick Vujicic

A magical speech for me. Watch once and cry once, and watch once again and cry once again. All hit without a single miss~!! What's the matter with me now? Why I am so sensitive to his speech?

See also http://kitkit-life.blogspot.com/2009/10/lets-go-together.html

Enjoy~~!! and I enjoy them very much~ ^^

第一次玩得如此激 - 哈佬喂

哈佬喂我扮流M大波女人~ 引來很多旁人目光，當然白眼亦不少。因為要保持型像關係，我沒有帶上眼鏡，一切兩三米以外的人與事都矇矓不見，正因如此，50%~80%我的表演欲都走了出來，有時還會逗得陌生的男男女女和我們一同作樂，或者合照。

我差不多全程都在矇矓之中，眼前的只有因為喜歡我而上前拍照的俊男美女，向我投上閃光燈而令我大玩Post的俊男美女，當然不少得哈佬喂的鬼仔鬼女。在我兩三米視線範圍內的，都是原全切合了我完美的畫面，從來沒有如此完美過。

其間有一個時刻我帶上了眼鏡，觀察一下正在排隊的人，目光一向外看，原來向我投上白眼的人多不星數，表情並不友善。

其間朋友亦告訴我，有一群人正低聲討論我實在如何嘔心。

或者我要把自己和處女座拉上關係哦，整個過程其實我都不停提醒自己：

• 要專業一點，要保持笑容
• 要自信一點，要娛人自娛
• 要演藝一點，要誇張全神

我想得太多? 那只是你對極端處女座未有深入了解吧! 哈哈~

而最後我都只不過是簡單一幹 --- 把眼鏡除下，繼續從兩三米範圍內吸取能量，繼續向二十三十米遠處用力投放，只要有俊男美女向我閃燈，我就找到了下一個要收進我兩三米內的能源。

然而最令我著魔的，就是從來沒有離開我兩三米範圍的伙伴，我們一同奇裝異服，享受著被陌生眼光寵愛的滋味。

很高興有這一次經歷，原來我這一個人，只要把視線收縮，就可以著魔起來。有時要看濶一點，但有時是要反過來幹的。

繼續走我的路。伙伴們請向我閃燈幾下，讓我懂得走來找尋支持，其他的，白眼幾下好了，反正我取時都可以把近視症安裝上眼上，令我察覺不到你的存在。白眼太久要休息下哦，免得因為我而令您的眼精過份疲勞 ^^